Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Are people really comparing Christmas to Halloween????

Someone made the comment to me that Christmas is for the kids.  Which, had me thinking (scary I know!).  Do people really think Christmas is just for the kids?  Are they lumping it together with Halloween and other kid events?  What if you don't have kids or you kids are all grown up?   Has our society really gotten that far away from the true meaning of Christmas that its become more of a commercialized holiday? 

Christmas is so much more than Santa and gifts.  I know this part is fun but it shouldn't be the center of celebrating Christmas.  Its about love,  giving and FORGIVING.  It s about being thankful and celebrating with family and friends.  It's about the birth of Jesus and remembering how great God truly is. 

Both Mark and I didn't go to church as kids.  Thankfully,we do now and so do my parents  and they  love it.  Growing up we missed what Christmas was all about. Sure we had great times with family, but its like throwing a big party for your son and daughter and then forgetting to bring the guest of honor or simply not showing up to celebrate their big day.  Yes, have all the fun with family and friends this year but don't forget Jesus is the reason for the season not Target, Walmart or the mall down the street!

This Christmas I encourage you to not forget Jesus and giving church a try!  Having Jesus at your party will help you remember why we celebrate Christmas and its just not for the kids! Plus if you want to give your kids the bes gift and your foucs is on just the kids then give the  gift that they will never forget and will have way after you are gone, and that gift is Jesus!

Monday, December 20, 2010

I Swear I'm going to Kill Her!

 I'm finally ending the curse that my mom, grandma's and probably great grandma had and continued to pass down to all the women in the family!  You know what I'm talking about stressing out over ever little thing that needs to get done before Christmas  Easter, Birthdays or just a simple family dinner!!!

I remember growing up having Christmas dinner at our house and my mom and almost every other mom I knew getting all worked up about the house!  I couldn't understand why until now! All the things we women have to do and our husbands have no clue what truly goes on before a big holiday!   Making sure the Christmas tree is up and decorated, lights on outside, grocery shopping, buying and wrapping presents, cleaning the house and not just cleaning the house but washing windows, washing floors and rugs, laundry, sheets cleaned, which i don't know why we clean before a party because it just gets all messed up and we have to start all over after everyone leaves!   Making cookies, getting Christmas outfits, family pictures, stamps and send out Christmas cards!  Its know wonder why women are exhausted before the big day gets here!  When the day finally gets here, we are busy getting the kids dressed, going to Church, getting the food ready, feeding the kids, cleaning up that we barely enjoyed the family that was over visiting. We take a quick glimpse over to our husbands and see them laughing and having a good old time that a part of you would like to strangle him because he knows how to relax and have a good time while you feel like a slave in your own house!  Finally, the night comes to an end and everyone leaves and you wonder why you do what you do and how did the day slip by you. You swear you will not do it again next year, however next year comes and the same old thing happens again!  Its like Ground Hog day!  Same thing just different year!

Of course I'm over exaggerating or maybe not, but you get the picture!  The majority of women I know work so hard getting everything ready for Christmas or many other family gatherings that we miss all the fun. My mom did it for years!  I call it the Martha syndrome! We laugh about it now and anytime we begin to feel stressed out we will call each other Martha! If you are not familiar with the story.  In the Bible there is a story about two sisters Martha and Mary.  They are completely different.  Jesus is coming to dinner and Martha is excited but focusing on all the stuff that needs to get done that she is getting mad at Mary because she isn't doing anything in Martha's eyes but sitting and enjoying Jesus.  Martha starts to upset and begins to moan and groan to Jesus . He stops her and reminds her that Mary is doing what is right.  Mary knew Jesus would not be with them for long and to enjoy him everything else can wait. 

I know I do it and so does so many other people, we focus on all the wrong stuff and miss the true joy of Christmas.  Seriously, who cares if your house is not spot less, the kids are not matching, the lights are not on and you have to buy store bought cookies because you just don't have the time to make them.  Its okay. What is important is to take time to remember what Christmas is all about the birth of our Savior Jesus and   to enjoy the family even if they drive you crazy!  Its only one day!!! Have fun with your kids.  This year as you are crossing off the thing you have finished but then adding a few more things to the never ending list, take a breather and remember to be more like Mary.  Its time to finally end the crazy Martha curse that has been handed down generation to generation.  This year is the year I'm finally killing Martha and be more like Mary and really enjoy Christmas and everythig that comes with it!  It's what I love about Christmas! Make sure we keep our priorities straight!  We can have and do all the stuff that comes with Christmas but if we miss celebrating Jesus then we missed the point and everything else really doesn't matter!

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Does the idea of gettig together with family put you in a panic attack???

The count down begins only 7 more days until Christmas!  Yes, this can be a wonderful time of the year. Time to get together with friends and family you might not see much during the year or  running into friends while you are shopping!  Its so fun seeing people that you normally wouldn't see.  Even if you are friends with them on FB and know exactly what they are doing, its not the same as seeing them face to face!

However, with all the expectations of Christmas and visiting family and friends, I think many of us can have feelings of disappointments.   We have all these thoughts of what Christmas will be like and get so excited about getting together with everyone, that when someone doesn't show up or isn't as thrilled about Christmas as you are, we start to feel discouraged.  We have hopes of families and friends putting the past behind us but to find out some of the people we love dearly may not feel the same about us.  For many people Christmas can be a time of great pain.

I'm here to remind everyone that if you  a "normal family" all of us  have some sort of dysfunction  in our families! If you focus on the dysfunction, you will miss the true joy of Christmas. I know this may not be easy for many people because their is so much hurt in their families or  painful memories at this time of the year.  But it all depends on what you want to focus on.  If you put your focus on people, even your family, you will have feelings of disappointments.  If you focus on the dysfunction, you will miss the joy of Christmas.  I believe when we have those feelings, its God reminding us not to focus on the world only him!  He is the reason for the season.  Whether you have a very close family, are all alone or a family like mine the "Griswalds"  know that the only way to truly enjoy this year is to keep your eye on Jesus and you will never be alone or disappointed! 

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Can You Keep up with all the Expecations of Christmas???

Until 2 years ago, Mark and I were doing what 98% of the population does on Christmas, spend so much money and focused on the all the wrong reasons to celebrate Christmas.  We would find ourselves kinda depressed or a feeling like this is it?  All the planning, shopping and excitement of getting together with family and then seconds after the gifts are opened and dinner is eaten we had the feeling like this is it!  All of that and its all over in one day.

All the gifts we bought the kids and our family members just never seemed enough.  So, we would go out to the stores just one more time and buy just a few more gifts to put under the tree. Half  the time we just bought the gifts for our kids  because heaven forbid our kids go to school and don't have all the cool and latest toys and gadgets as their friends.  Every year we were trying to out do ourselves from the next year and it was getting exhausting and we didn't like what this was teaching our kids.

 God spoke to our hearts. We were having those feelings like who is this for?  We knew it wasn't for God because he doesn't need this stuff.  It wasn't really for our kids, because they didn't need it.  Was it for us?  Where we sucked in to the materialism and commercialism of this world telling us that more is better?  Of course the answer was Yes.

We have changed our traditions on how we celebrate Christmas.  Yes, we still do Santa but its know where like it use to be.  We give our kids a FEW gifts and we don't  over spend, which is not easy! (Makenna and Markus know longer believe in Santa.  When they asked us if he was real Mark and I didn't want to lie to them.  We wanted them to understand Santa was for fun and using our imagination but we wanted them to know that  God is real and to know and believe in  the true spirit of Christmas)  We have taught them the true meaning of Christmas which isn't just looking at the manager you put on your fireplace. Its  not about just picking up a tag on the Christmas tree at church and buying a gift a target. (this is nice but its so much more)  Its about Jesus and his birth.  Its about giving to him.  I don't share this story to pat myself on the back to say Mark and I are the greatest parents, because we are not.  This is all God and his doing.  We really want our kids to experience what it means to give, to see the pain in the world and to truly recognize how blessed we are.  To put others before ourselves.

Two years ago a friend of mine shared a story on what she was doing for the homeless.  Mark and I were able to do it with the kids.  You don't need a Church or a huge group of people to do the work Jesus has called you to do!  We made lunches for the homeless.  Makenna wrote Scripture on an index card and put it in the bag and we went down to the heart of Detroit to a shelter.  It was  great learning experience for them and then after we took them for a treat to Lafayette Cony Island!  (they have been wanting to go there because they watched in on TV diners!!!)  This year we are doing something completely different. They still talk about it to this day!

This year don't kill yourself because you can't keep up with the Joneses or yourself from the previous years.  Instead put the focus on the one who matters and do something for someone else this year.  It will give you more joy then giving another present to someone who really doesn't need anything but your love!

What has God Done For You???

Christmas time can be a great time of Joy.  Its a great time to get together with family and friends.  Its a time more people are focused on giving and reaching out to help someone in need.  Its a great time to reminisce, laugh and be thankful for the life God has given us.  Gathering with people we love and celebrating the birth of Christ is the best time of the year. 

However, many people are going through so much at this time of year.  Many people are without a job, lost a love one, dealing with sickness either with themselves or with someone they love so much, divorce, or are all alone.  Some people know why we celebrate Christmas, however because of all the hurt they are dealing with in their life or trying to maintain the expectations of what the world says about Christmas, they feel empty and are slowly loosing hope. 

Today, instead of me writing about my experiences or thoughts on faith, hope and even suffering, I would love for you to post your comments on how God has healed you.  Your words might help someone else and bless them this Christmas season...

God has promised that all things work together for good to those who love and serve Him faithfully (Romans 8:28).

Monday, December 6, 2010

Can You Please Forgive Me for Stealing???

Have you ever did anything that you know you shouldn't do, but you think what the heck, its really know big deal?  You try to find reasons to validate what you are doing.  It happened to me this past month.

I knew better but sometimes we make mistakes and give in because everyone else is doing it.  Thankfully, I surround myself with people who encourage me but also hold me accountable for my actions.  It hit me a few weeks ago, when talking to a friend a church.  If the saying is true,"how you do anything, is how you do everything," then the littlest things matter. 

Anyway, mark and I are doing p90x. My cousin has the dvd's and to save a few bucks, we asked him if we could borrow his cd's.  I decided lets burn the DVD's so we have our own copies.  There are people I'm sure that don't think there is anything wrong with this, but there is its stealing.  There are people who make a living selling CD's and DVD's and if we burn them we are taking money from them.  I'm sure there are people who think, some of these people make a ton of money and they don't need it or will miss it and that is still wrong.  They have worked very hard putting there info out there for us and if we can't pay for it then we don't need it.  If you want to make a ton of money like them, then create your program.  One day I hope to have CD's and books out there and would I want someone stealing from me? 

The little things matter and they all add up.  Think about it all it took was a bite of an apple from Adam and  Eve in the garden.  They knew better but they I'm sure they thought just this one time won't hurt and it did and we are all paying for it because of one dumb little but huge mistake.  "Let the thief no longer steal, but rather let him labor,doing honest work with his own hands, so that he may Have something to share with anyone in need." Ephesians 4:28.  "you shall not steal" Exodus 20:15. "And Jesus said, You shall not murder, you shall not commit adultery, you sall not steal and you shall not bear false witness. "Matthew 19:18.

So, the DVD's we burned are going in the garbage.  I'm so thankful God is a forgiving God and can forgive me for making such stupid mistakes! Thankful for my dear friend for remindng me!

Sunday, December 5, 2010

What to do When Your Neighbor Loses Your Dog!

What do yo do when you ask your neighbor( who is a grown man) to let your dogs out while you are gone and you come home and the  your dog which is 16 yeras old, deaf and blind is missing? 

Last night around midnight we walked into the door from a long ride home from Grand Rapids expecting to find our dogs sleeping.  Instead, we found the back door to our sun room opened, the screed door opened and the door going to our backyard open and one of our dogs missing.

We house sit our neighbors dog for them, so this was one of the first times we asked him to let our dogs out.  When we found kodi missing, we were very upset  especially becasue she is so old.  Mark was up driving around looking for her and I called all the police stations asking if anyone turned her in and the aswers have been NO. 
What do I do?  What do I teach my kids because I know there are lessons to learn from this.  After I made the phone calls and had no luck, I sat the kids in bed and had a talk with them.

First, Everyone makes me mistakes.  Yes, we are sad and I'm upset, but we have to find forgiveness.

Second. How you do anything is how you do everything.  God cannot bless you nor will he if you don't learn how to take care of the little the things.  If you can't take care of the little things how in the world can you handle anything big.  Its important not to be careless and to treat other peoples belongings just like how you would treat your own.  When someone asks you to do something and you say yes, to give it 100%. 

Truth is Mark and I have been talking about putting Kodi to sleep for 2 years and haven't had the guts to follow through with it.  Yes, the kids are sad and so are Mark and I because we didn't get to say goodbye but at least something didn't happen to one of us or to a PERSON we care and love.  Also, it just reminds us that you never know when something will be taken from you or when someone you love could pass away, so to make everyday count and always tell the person and yes even your dog how much you love them...

We pray that someone has her and will turn her in so we get a second chance at saying goodbye...

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Are Competivite Sports Healthy For Kids??? Part 2

Gymnastics season officially starts for us tomorrow!!!

As Makenna is preparing herself for her first meet, she understand that she isn't in competition with anyone.  She doesn't go to her meets to beat another girl or another team.  She doesn't compare herself to other girls and mark and I don't compare her with other gymnast either.  There are girls that are better than her and girls Makenna is better than and that is called life!  We will meet people who are prettier, smarter and have more athletic ability than us and vice verse. So, we have to learn how to stay focus on our gifts and be grateful for what we have and to be happy for everyone else too.   If we are always comparing ourselves with someone else or wanting what they have, we will miss the beauty God has given each of us.

  We are teaching Makenna (and Markus and Marcia) its not about going to the meets to beat another team.  Its not about winning the trophy or metals and its not about the score.  (However, it is nice to win!!!) Its about taking all the gifts and talent God has given you and shinning for him.  She has learned to ask God for help and to let him work in her at the age of 10 years old!  She use to feel like she was bragging if she went on the gymnastics floor and gave it her all, which is absolutely wrong.  God wants you to succeed and he wants you to give your best because when we do good, it makes God look good and he gets all the glory.  Makenna knows when someone looks at her they see the light of Jesus.  Think about it, when your kids do well doesn't it make you so happy and proud.  It makes you look good!  This is how God feels about all of us.  Also, our kids are learning its not all about them that they have a responsibility to take their gifts and talents and bless other people...

Today, whether its taking care of your kids, cleaning the house, going to work or moving toward your God given purpose, do it with the right attitude and shine not for yourself but for your father in heaven and give him the glory he deserves.

Friday, December 3, 2010

Are Competitive Sports Healthy for Kids???? Part One

Makenna first gymnastics meet for the season starts this Saturday!  We are all excited and can't wait to watch her use her gifts that God has given her.  I know there are people who don't agree with competitive sports and probably for good reasons.  However, I've seen and witnessed the benefits of sports in my life, my husband and my kids lives.  There is a such thing as healthy competition.  Mark and I have been able to use gymnastics for Makenna and Karate for Markus and Marcia as another fertile ground to teach them important life lessons.  (which I will share in future blogs)  I don't think sports are the problem.  Its the coaches and parents who don't have their morals and values in check and act like morons that are the problems.  When the parents act crazy then so do their kids!  So, its important to make sure  the coaches that are teaching and spending time with your kid has the same values as you do.  If they don't and its not a healthy environment you are setting your child up for disaster. 

Its so important as parents to do our job  to teach our kids about balance.  I know Makenna loves gymnastics and probably would spend every day in the gym if we allowed her too, but what is that teaching her?  Its teaching her to be a workaholic and idols success as an adult and that is not healthy.  In our house it is God, family, school and then whatever comes after. If anything begins to feel or look chaotic we know are priorities are all out of whack. 

  Makenna has big goals and she knows with God and hard work, anything is possible. (I love when kids and adults and bigger visions for their life.  However, the majority of kids and adults have big ideas but sit on their behinds and play video games all day or won't take the time to sharpen their skills in order to reach their dreams.  If you are going to dream big and use the gifts and talent God has given you, then you need to work on them everyday.  If someone thinks they can accomplish something by wishing or doing nothing I have bad news for you that is a poverty mindset. The bible says, "He who works his land will have abundant food, but he who chases fantasies lacks judgment. Proverbs 12:11 We teach the kids to dream big but in order to do that you have to learn how to work and it starts at home first!

Do You Dread Putting Your Kids to Bed?

Putting my kids to bed last night was one of those nights!  You know what kind of bedtime nightmare I'm talking about.  The one when your daughter knows how to work you and get you to get her water, then milk, turn on the bathroom light, run out of her room 10 times to say good night and kiss you one more time!  As much as you are trying to keep your cool, you just want your kids to go to bed so you can have a least 10 minutes of quite time before you pass out of exhaustion!  The more they came out of their room the crankier I was feeling.  I looked my daughter  Marcia and said in a loud voice, "GET IN BED."  She looks at me with her sweet face and says, "Mom all you have to do is say it in your nice voice!  Can you please talk nice to me."  What do am I suppose to say about that?

 So, I look at her and in my nice voice I ask her to go to bed.  She looks at me and say OK and off to bed she went and she never snuck out of her room again! know being a mom is not easy and sometimes our kids just know how to push our buttons!  We have to remember that is their job!  I know that sounds crazy but they are kids for a reason and we are the parents.  Its our job to teach our kids self-control, patience, kindness, respect and love.  If they through a baby fit and we through one back, what is that teaching them?  We have to make sure we are preaching what we practice.  Ask yourself, the way you talk to your kids, would you want your spouse or boss to talk to you the way you speak to them?  I can guarantee the answer is no. Ask anyone, I'm a fanatic about words and how we speak to each other and to ourselves.  I'm not perfect but its something I take very serious.  But why do adults who know better talk to children the way they do.  We have to show them the way because when they know better then they can do better. 

Sunday, November 28, 2010

My Experience on Black Friday!

This weekend Mark and I took the kids shopping.  Since they truly needed some new clothes, we decided to venture out on the craziest shopping day of the year! Black Friday!!!  We decided to go to Old Navy and then treat the kids to dinner.  Having four kids means when there is a sale on shirts for $5.00 , we have to take advantage of the situation, even if it means on Black Friday!

Before we headed out to the craziness, I knew I needed to set a plan, if I didn't I would walk into the store and be tempted with all the great deals and all the new clothes. As we all walked into the store the smell of new clothes and new trends grabbed my attention! ( I don't care to shop but I will admit I love clothes!) I looked at all the ladies working and how cute they looked in their new sweaters, boots and jeans.  All the people shopping  looking so much cooler than me!  I haven't been shopping for regular clothes since Marie was born.  The clothes I am wearing are becoming to big and my pre baby clothes I can't quite fit into. ( I can but I can't breath when I wear them!) The more I  looked  around at everyone else, the more uglier I began to feel.  I began to look at what I didn't have instead of being grateful for what I had.  I walked past the mirror and wanted to bust out in tears!

 ( Its not that we don't have the money to buy  clothes. The question is how much do I really need?  Thankfully, I learned to discipline myself and learn not to over indulge as hard as it is..  Years ago, I would of opened up a credit card and charged myself silly and then I would of come home and been sick to my stomach on how much I spent.  Anyone else have that feeling?  If so I have some bad news for you.  Credit Cards on not a blessing from God. If you don't have the cash to buy it then you don't need it. I don't think there is anything wrong with shopping and having things.  If God wants you to have them he will give them to you but there won't be an interest rate and monthly payments attached!  More on this later!!!)

I was getting sucked in to the world of materialism!  I was looking on the outside instead of the inside.  I know we all like to look nice and feel good about our self. But if we don't love what is in the inside first, nothing on the outside matters! Mark always says, its not what we wear but how we wear it!  Its the attitude.  The most beautiful women in the world are not the skinniest or the best dressed but the ones that know who they are and whose they are. We have to be very careful not to let those negative thoughts enter our head and most importantly we cannot feed them!

God whispered in my ear and reminded me of all the kids around the world this Christmas who will be not live another day because they simply don't have enough to eat and here I'm upset because I can't buy a ton of clothes.  He also reminded me that he will always give us what we NEED.  As I headed up to the cashier, my attitude changed and I was thankful for the few outfits we were able to buy. The best thing, the kid were so appreciated of what we bought them and there was no buyers remorse or feelings of regret!

That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life--whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn't life more than food, and your body more than clothing.  Matthew 6:25.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Thankful for my Parents and the Risk They Take!

When people hear the word CHRISTIAN  they think boring, safe and afraid to live life. At least,  I know I did.  I thought calling yourself Christian meant having no life at all.  The reason I thought this was because the people who called themselves Christian that I knew lived in fear and were afraid to dream and take a chance in life.  So, the last thing I wanted to do was call myself a Christan! It really didn't make sense to me because If God was who they claimed he he was, then wasn't he much bigger than living in their small suburban life style? Why were these Christians so afraid of taking risks in their life. Isn't life more than joust getting married, have kids, work and retire?   I'm not saying there is anything wrong with that and I'm thankful for my marriage, kids and family.  However, I know I was put on this Earth for more than that and I want to live a life full of adventure and not afraid to take risk in my life!

Today, I'm thankful for my parents and showing me what risk really means!  They have been married today for 36 years and it was not an easy road for them. ( I know I lived it with them!)  In my eyes they are the most amazing parents!  Please know when I say this doesn't mean my childhood was perfect because it wasn't and they made their share of mistakes. ( By me saying they made mistakes, doesn't mean I don't love them! I believe if we don't recognize the mistakes we will continue to pass them on in our families. Its important to know why we do what we do?  Remember once we know better we can do better)  I wouldn't change anything, because its made me who I am today!

Despite their mistakes, they never gave up on life or each other.  They never gave up on their dreams and were not afraid to dream big.  I know their were days they wanted to kill each other and walk away,but because of the love they had for each other and my brother and I, they took the risk to keep loving each other.  Recently, they took the biggest risk in their life and that was making the decion to turn their life around and live for Christ.  (That is a story all on its own!)

Taking Risk doesn't mean life is going to be easy.  Taking Risk doesn't mean we will always know the answers or the outcome.  Taking risk doesn't mean that people will always like you or agree with you. Taking Risk doesn't mean you won't fail or make mistakes.  Taking  the Risk to love God and follow Christ doesn't mean people won't laugh at you and talk about you!  Taking Risk for God means all these things but it also means living a life that will be the most exciting ride you will ever be on.  It means living a life beyond yourself.  It means know living a life that is no longer self-centered but Christ centered. I'm so thankful I learned that living for Christ is everything but boring!  Its so much more than going to just going to Church!  Its living your life and your purpose that God placed on your heart!  Its about taking a chance, when everything else around you is telling you its impossible!  I don't serve the small God that most Christians serve. I serve a much bigger God. A wild, loving, fun God who is all about taking Risk!

 I can't thank my mom and dad enough for taking the Risk to love each other and to  yes to God!  Thank you for showing me that its never to late to try anything and its never to late to change. At the age of 55 years old, going on a mission trip to Cambodia is so awesome! I know this will only be the start of so many more adventures in their life! It gives me hope that after my kids are grown there is still so much more we can do with our life!
   Most importantly thank you for showing me that as my kids grow into adults that my job as a parent never ends.  That they will continue to need me to be the leader and to show them the way.  Even when I think they don't need anymore,there will be a place in their heart that will always need guidance and love.  So, its my job to continue to love God and show them the way even when its Risky!

Saturday, November 20, 2010

One Season at a Time!

Last but not least is Marie!  I'm so thankful that Mark and I were able to have one more baby! As crazy as it may sound, I'm enjoying Marie probably more than I have with the other three.  Don't get me wrong, I love all my kids and being a mom, However this time there is just something different, Me! 

You would think it would be the complete opposite.  I'm busier now than I ever have been before.  I'm homeschooling the kids, driving the other three all over the place from gymnastics to karate and carting them with  me everywhere I go, from doctors appointments to the grocery store!  I think Marie might just spend her first year mostly in her car seat!  I'm sleeping less because Marie still wakes up during the night along with my two dogs!!! And yet, I'm enjoying Marie more as a baby than I did with my other three.  On top of it, I love to buy myself clothes! Now, I'm on a budget and shopping for me is always last on the list!  I never liked budgets and never wanted to be on one!!! So, how can I have more joy in my life than I ever have before.   Why, because its all on how I have chosen to look at my life!

From Marcia to Marie, I've worked very hard on myself  and my mindset (of course with the help of God), which is so important.  He has taught me, what ever you think about is the life you will create. However,  As I was working on my mindset, I found myself trying to do things on my time.  I was trying to control everything and make things happen on my own.  I wasn't giving it to God, totally trusting him and putting it in his hands.    I was still at times feeling stressed out, tired, worry, angry at times, anxiety, etc., You get the picture! I knew this couldn't be God and it wasn't! The reason I was feeling this way was because  I wasn't in his will and doing things the way he wanted .   God had to knock some sense into me and tell me to stop trying to do things on my own. I've learned when you are in his will everything works out. It might not be the way we planned it, but his plans are much better than ours will ever be. We will only know how big his plans are ,if we keep walking in faith and never give up no matter how hard life may be.    God will shut the door if he doesn't want us to enter, however we want things our way and we want them  now that we will try to blast the door open, when it needs to stay shut.  We think our kids don't have patience, adults are worse!  Just because God shut the door doesn't mean it will remain closed forever.  If he placed something on your heart to do, it will happen.  He just wants you to learn a lesson before he can move you forward and to have patience!  There is no rush even though we think there is!    When we are relying on our self we will feel all those negative emotions.  However, when you put everything in God's hands trust and let him guide you there is nothing but peace in your life.  I'm not saying everything will be easy and total chaos can be going on around you, like there is at times in my life, but I know God has my back!

God has also taught me that there are seasons in my life and to enjoy the most important one I will ever have  and that is being a mom!  Our kids are only with us for a very short time.  I realize how quick time goes by because my oldest is already 10 years old!  Before we know it, they will be out on their own living their life. 
Laying the foundation for your kids is vital! Of course,  we won't be perfect and yes we will make mistakes, but that is why its important that our kids have God in their life and not only in their life but first.  ( I tell my kids all the time don't be your faith in people or daddy and me because sometime in your life we will disappoint you.  We are not God and only God is perfect and he will never let you down.  I will write more on this later)

There are so many dreams God has laid on my heart and so much more I want to do for him in my life. Sometimes, I get a Little ahead of God and he has to remind me, One day at a time. He wants us to enjoy the gifts he has given us and sometimes we miss what is right in front of our face until it is gone.

When ever you feel worry, stress, anxiety, fear and all the other negative feelings.  Please know that is everything but God.  Put your trust in him and let him take care and lead you to the life he has promised!  I can't end my blog without saying, if you haven't picked up your Bible and or never read one before, pick it up and give it a try.  You will be amazed to what you will fine! I know I sure was! 

If you would like me to speak for your church or organization, please send me an email at kmcw1975@yahoo.com or contact me on facebook!   If you would like to leave a comment, I would love to hear from you!

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Thankful for Marcia and the Birth of a New Me!

Today, I'm thankful for Marcia and all the joy she has brought to our family! She has a love for life and never wants the party to end! There is never a dull moment with her and when she isn't around we realize how boring our life would be without her! She isn't afraid to say what is on her mind or to try anything! She loves people and they love her! She already has the type of personality that can walk in a room and light it up by just being in it.

Marica's pregnancy, not only brought this amazing girl into our life, it also gave birth to a new me! Before and during my pregnancy, God was defiantly trying to get my attention, but I wasn't ready to listen. I was changing very slowly but I wasn't ready to totally give up the life I was living. I don’t really know why because the life I was living was making me miserable! It was what I knew and I was afraid of change or I should say changing myself. Also, I was afraid of what other people may think of me. Silly, that I would sacrifice peace and joy for the opinions of others. (Funny thing is those people I was afraid would talk about me where talking and laughing at me anyway. I might was well live the life I was intended to live and quite worrying about others.) I believed in God and knew Jesus but I wasn’t ready to live for him.
On one summer day when I was about 5 months pregnant, I was outside playing with the kids. A neighbor who lives around the block from me, stopped in front of my house and said something very rude. This person was someone, at this point in my life, I couldn’t stand. She made my skin crawl and now she was living down the street from me! I felt like I was living Desperate Housewives! After she said what she said to me, I through a fit! Lets just say the words that came out of my mouth were anything but nice! I even told her to get out of the car! Now, thinking about this makes me laugh because what in the heck was I going to do. Here I am a grown adult and pregnant and wanting to kick some butt!!! How ridiculous!!! She drove away and I through my water bottle at her car!! My blood pressure must of been sky high and as I was getting ready to walk in the house and call everyone one I knew and replay what just happened over and over again in my head and keep the fire going, I looked over my shoulder and saw my five year old daughter and three year old son looking at me. I never felt so dumb and embarrassed before in my life. Everything I was teaching them about respect, love and forgiveness I might as well thrown out the window. It doesn't matter what I say. its how I live my life that will make the most impact on their life. At that moment I knew something needed to change in me.

Looking in the mirror and taking a deep look at ourselves is not easy. Its so much easier to point our finger and blame everyone else and that was exactly what I was doing. It couldn’t possibly be me. It had to be everyone else! Wrong, it was me! I began to realize the only person I could change was me. As I began to look in the mirror I saw my imperfections. The wrinkles, pimples ( don't ask me how I still get pimples in my 30's!!!), and the beginning of gray hair. Most of all, I saw the person I never wanted to become. What happened to the girl who had so many dreams? Why was I holding on so many hurts, disappointments, grudges and insecurities? Why didn't I truly love the person God created? Why was I so angry at my husband? What happened to the marriage I dreamed of having but instead was slowly loosing? Why couldn't I ever be happy with what I had? The list goes on and on.

I'm thankful God began to open my eyes and helped change me. I've learned that we are co-creators with God. He has so much more planned for our life, but we have to be ready to do our work too. I was so use to comparing myself to others that I really didn't think there was anything wrong with me. Seriously, you don't have to look hard to see the world has so many crazy people, even in the church too! I thought I wasn't doing anything horrible, so it was all good! But I began to see what God was seeing. Yes, he loves us and wants more for us ,but until he can wash away all the crap that holds us back, we can truly never be the person God has called us to be.

As I began to look at myself, I forgave and make peace with the person who I couldn’t stand and many other people and experiences I’ve had. But, most importantly, I forgave myself! ( I will write about forgiveness at a later time! Forgiveness has nothing to do with the other person. It has everything to do with you. Its not an easy thing to do.)

I hope you continue to read my blogs as I share my journey on how I found forgiveness, joy, peace and love in my life. How I learned why I was a control freak and how my marriage has been restored! How everything I needed or wanted was right in front of me.  I will share the amazing experiences God gave me with speaking and traveling all over the U.S, London and Germany. How he gave me the opportunity to do a radio show, appear on PBS and be where I am today being a wife to my husband and homeschooling my kids!  At this point in my life, there is nowhere else I would rather be!   He placed so many incredible people in my path which has lead me to the place I am today. Looking at my life everything has changed and yet really nothing has except for me!

Living for Jesus will give you the meaning to your life that you have been searching for!

Monday, November 8, 2010

Why I'm so Thankful for My Son

My pregnancy with Markus and delivery was perfect. I had no complications and even delivered him naturally with absolutely no drugs!!! So you can imagine how shocking it was when Markus MRI report came back that he had a degenerating brain disorder.

Mom's just know when something isn't right. It's an intuition we are born with, especially when it comes to our kids. Sometimes the hardest thing to admit is, when something is wrong. As Markus was growing, he was such a happy and easy going baby. Being the second baby, I wasn’t as high strung as I was with Makenna. I wasn't so concerned and on top of all the baby milestones, but I just knew something was going. He wasn't hitting or doing some of the little things his sister did.

I knew not to compare the two because they were different and everyone matures and learns at different stages in their life. It goes for adults as well! But when he was 18 months old he still wasn't walking or talking. It was like he stopped progressing. He wasn't digressing but he really wasn't moving forward either.

After many talks with the doctor, he went to get a MRI. Any sort of test or procedure done to your kids is nerve wrecking. I remember as they laid Markus down on the table and began to sedate him, he just looked at me and mark with his big brown eyes. It was like he was saying, "why are they doing this to me. Please don't leave me." As mark and I tried are hardest not to cry, tears were pouring out of our eyes.

As I said earlier, test came back reporting he had a degenerating brain disorder. I'm not going to get into all the specifics in this bog. We made an appointment with the Neurologist and for the next two weeks we did nothing put pray and cry! Everyone was praying for him.

The day we went back to talk about the results, was the day Markus started to walk!!! The doctor's couldn’t explain why the test said one thing and clinically it said something different. The doctors did say he would have a harder time learning, it might take him a little longer to do things and motor skills could be a struggle for him. However, he will grow up to be a normal little boy! Thank God!

Today, Markus is 7 years old! In my eyes he is the most amazing little boy I know. He has taught me so much about life! He has taught me not to look at other people's faults but to concentrate on their strengths. He has helped me realize it doesn't matter what the world says. The world may look at Markus and see one thing but I see something completely different and all I see is greatness. (Honestly, it wouldn’t of mattered what the doctors would of said, because I know with God anything is possible.) We refuse to let the world label him. He just learns differently and is growing up on his time!

He may not be the all-star baseball player like his dad or the quarterback of the football team, but that is okay because he is not his dad! He's Markus and God has a different plan for him. (Who want to be like everyone else. Its more fun to be different! We all know I am!!) He has a love for reading, math, swimming and Karate! (He told me is goal is to be a master black belt and I know he can do it!)

Parents need to be careful that we don't let our Ego get in the way and want our kids to do what WE want or try to be something they aren't, just so we or they can fit in. Also, we need to watch our words because we can either speak life or death and whichever we choose they will believe. Let them know and see it in your eyes how much you love them just for who they are. Let them know that God loves them and has a much bigger plan for their life. Maybe its really hard to see a bigger vision for yourself, but I pray you see one for your child.

I'm so thankful for my son! He has taught me where we are weak God is strong and in those weaknesses is where God will shine! I'm thankful for the most amazing little boy. He has a spirit that loves God and reminds us everyday what love truly is! I don't know what the future hold for my son, but I do know whatever it is, it will be amazing!

The lessons he( as well as my other kids) has taught me cannot be written on just one blog! There will be more to come at a later time...Thanks for reading! If you would like, please leave a comment and add yourself to my blog! If you would like me to speak for your organization, school or church, please contact via facebook or email at

Saturday, November 6, 2010


Since, Thanksgiving is right around the corner, I figured this would be a perfect time to write about what I'm thankful for. Of course, I'm thankful for my four children. Each child has taught me a special lesson about life.. This blog will be about my oldest daughter Makenna. .

The day I found out I was pregnant with Makenna, saved my life and changed the direction of it forever. Let me rewind a few months prior to finding out I was pregnant. During this time in my life, I was going through a major depression. I don't mean depression like I'm having a bad day, because I gained two pounds kind of of depression. I'm talking about can't get out of bed for days, crying and feeling so low about myself I actually thought and tried to end my life. Looking back now, I don't think I was trying to end my life. It was a cry for help. As desperate as it sounds, I was trying to get Mark’s attention and wanted him to realize how bad I was feeling. ( if you are going through a depression right now, please know this is not the answer and to get help. Don't be ashamed to get help)

I was really good at hiding how I was feeling from everyone. Everything looked great on the outside but inside I was seriously dying. My parents didn't have any idea because I wasn't living at home. My mom knew something was going on, but couldn't put her finger on it. Mark and I were just married and he really didn’t know what to.

I wasn't depressed because I had some awful childhood. I have great parents (not perfect) who I knew without a doubt they loved and to this day love me. The world got to me. I was comparing myself to other people, wanting what I didn't have, trying to please everyone, caring what everyone thought about me, feeling like a complete failure. ( I can get into this more, if you ever hear me speak!) I was trying to control everything in my life. The more I tried to control my life, the more my life spinned the opposite way. (this is another topic at another time too.) I lost my best friend a few years before that and the topper to all this was I was drinking way to much. Some people can handle drinking. Drinking and me just doesn't mix. At the time it did, because I was having a blast or at least thought I was. However, the more I drank, the more I would get out of control. Everyone knows I can have a big mouth, so you can imagine what it was like when I drank. I hurt many people who were close to me. After having this so called good time, I would find myself in bed for a least a day or two extremely depressed.

One day thankfully, my mom came over to visit. I couldn’t fool her anymore and she found me laying in bed crying non stop. I was able to get some help, but it wasn't the help I truly needed. The doctor put me on medication, which was just like putting a band aid on an open wound.

This was not easy for my husband or my parents to watch. They didn’t understand what was going on with me. How could they, I didn’t even understand myself at that time either. As much as they loved me there was nothing they could do except pray and that was exactly what my mom was doing.

A few months before I found out I was pregnant, was the icing on the cake. I was at a wedding and drank so much and was so out of control. I'll never forget looking across the room to my parents and husband and seeing the look in their eyes. I treated Mark horribly and was so embarrassed and mad at myself the next morning decided to take an entire bottle of pills. I just couldn’t get my act together. The more I messed up the worse I felt.

At this point you may be thinking why in the world would I be sharing such a personal story on my blog. Honestly, because God has placed it on my heart to share, teach and help others through my experiences and lessons he has taught and still is teaching me. Believe me there has been plenty and still are lessons I’m learning today!!

Also, I do it to give someone hope. If there is someone that is feeling depressed or going through something please know everything will be okay. You are not alone. Many people looking at me today or even then are probably shocked to know this about me. Don't let outer appearance fool you. You don't have to pretend that everything is perfect. Don’t feel, if you are going through something, that you are a failure. Everyone, if they truly live their life fully, will go through hurt, disappointments, failure, loss, etc., you name it you'll experience it. In those dark and lonely moments is when you need to reach to the only one that can raise up and that is God! God will help bring the right people in your life that can help get you through the situation you are in and not to keep you there.

As my life seemed to be spinning of control, God sent me an angel from heaven for a daughter. She has truly been an amazing gift in so many ways. (her name means gift in Hawaiian) The day I found out I was pregnant I stopped all medication. ( I do not recommend that to anyone. Make sure you see a doctor) My whole body felt like it was going through major withdraws for the first few days. But thankfully, Makenna came into this world perfect with a wise and loving spirit. There truly isn't anyone like her.

The day I gave birth my life changed. No longer was I living a life for me. I wanted to give this baby girl the world. I knew the only way to do that was to change me. She changed me and I thank God every day for her and the meaning she has given my life. I pray that she grows up ( with the rest of my kids) to love me as much as I love my mom.

I'm so thankful God was able to get my attention and bless me with a beautiful daughter. I'm thankful that he began to open my eyes to what truly matters. I'm thankful that I no longer live for myself but for God. God is trying to get your attention, its up to you if you hear the message.

I haven’t been depressed since the day I found out I was pregnant!  I truly believe it was the healing from God!

Next Blog will be about my son!

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Marriage Can Really Suck!!!

Yes, I said it, ,marriage can really suck and be hard at times! If you have been married longer than 2 weeks you know this to be a fact! Actually, all realtionships can be hard and require work, if you truly care about the person.

Mark and I have been married for 12 years! We have 4 kids and I love him with all my heart. We've known each other since we've been in the 4th grade! So, we know just about everything about each other, which can be a good or bad thing depending on how you look at it!

It hasn't been an easy road. Just a few years ago, we were like just about every other couple out there. We were focued on ourselves and what was in it for us. We got caught up in the world and the desires of the world and lost touch on what it means to have a healthy realionship. What kept us going is the passion we have for each other and the the birth of our kids. Even when we wanted to kill each other or when he would do something that made me want to puke all over him, there was still this passion that kept us together! After we had kids, we knew something needed to change becasue of the love we have for our kids. We learned that we couldn't do this alone, we needed God.

Love is not a feeling! Its a choice. I know that kinda stinks becasue if its a feeling, its easy to just give up on your relatioship. But when you realize its a choice, it takes sacrifice, and its not always about you, then everything changes! You now know you have a major role in the marriage too and you can't always blame your spouse! ( The sacrifice and all about you was hard for me to learn! I can be very high maintance at times. When I read the five love languages, I realized not just one was my love language but all five!!!)

Our marriage is not perfect and we still can get on each other's last nerve! Thankfully, God has taught us and helped Mark and I take a deeper look at ourselves and stop always pointing the finger at each other.

Here are a few questions to ask yourself and to help you with your marriage. When ever mark and I start to get a little cranky with each other, we recognize its becasue we are stuck on ourselves. When this happens, we try to ask ourselves, what would we do to save our marriage? If I knew Mark wanted to leave the marriage, would I be willing to do everything it takes to save it? Why wait to your realtionship gets to that part. Every day we should be thinking about what we can do for each other. Remember its not a feeling its a choice. Your husband can drive you up the wall, but if you have the additude of waiting for him to make the first move, then nobody will win and your marriage will fail. I know what Mark's love language is and trust me its the last one on my list! After taking care of 4 kids all day that is the last thing I want to do. However, I love him and that means doing things even when I don't feel like it! Guess what, when I give to him with out expecting anything back, he does the same for me and vice versa. Change the way you look at each other ad foucs on the positive and every day little by little thigs will get better...

Second, ask yourself what typ of wife do you want for your son? What type of husband do you want for your daughters? Then look at yourself and ask yourself are being those role models for them? Your kids are watching you and if you want a healthy marriage for them, you better get your act straight!

Most importantly, you can't do this without God. Remember your spouse will never fullfill you only God can. People will always disapoint you, but God is always faithfull! The more you deepen your realionship with him, the deeper your love will grow for each other!

A great marriage is not when the 'perfect couple' come together. It is when an imperfect couple learns to enjoy their differences.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

My Random Thoughts on Voting and Politics!

My views today are much different that they were 4 years ago. I never really cared about Politics because all it seemed to me was a bunch of people arguing, pointing their fingers at each other and never agreeing on anything!

I didn't want to get involved because I love people. It might sound silly or even a little naive, but it 's the truth. I figured I would live my life one way and let everyone do whatever they want. I thought politics were just bunch of people who hated each other.

But the more my kids grew and the more I learned about God, my views have changed. I learned that I couldn't keep my head in the sand. The reason I needed to learn about politics was because of my love of people. Staying uneducated and in the dark wasn't helping anyone. I needed to learn and know where I stood on issues and why and who I was going to follow, because like the saying goes , "if you don't stand for something, you will fall for anything." I was finding myself doing exactly that. Because I didn't know myself nor what I believed whatever anyone said sounded good to me. As I grew I realized everyone is screwed up and I couldn't stand on man's word nor the views of the world because like I said we are all messed up! None of us truly know what is best. The more I learn the more I do realize I really don't know anything and the only one I can trust is God and his word.

I never truly new God's word. I believed in God but didn't know him. I've learned it can know longer be what I think, it has to be about what God thinks. This was not easy for me, since I'm a the kind of person who rebelled against authority as a kid and even as an adult! Whatever my parents wanted me to do,(as much as I loved them) it seemed I wanted to do the opposite. You can imagine how hard it was for me to listen to God! I had to give up what I thought was right and trust in a much higher power!

See, it was God who convicted me. He knew how hard headed I was (and still can be at times) and put some great people in my life. They didn't nag me, they didn't argue with me, they didn't call me names because of my beliefs or views I had. Instead they stood strong on what they believed, supported organizations that had the same views as they did and voted for what they believed in.They lived their life according to scripture and loved people even if they didn't agree with them. As I learned and had questions, those were the people I turned to. They planted the seeds by living the life and being friends with me, even though we didn't see eye to eye. ( Remember its agreeing to disagree and doing it with love!)

I don't call myself a Democrat, republican, conservative or liberal. These names just cause division between people and that is exactly what the enemy wants. If a house is divided against itself, that house cannot stand. Mark 3:5. I'm a Christ follower.( I know when I say this, it freaks people out! Yes, I will proudly admit I'm a Jesus Freak!!!)

I will vote according to what God has convicted in my heart! We are all at different walks in our life spiritually. At the end of our life, its God we all have to give account to our actions and choices we make. I just pray that God continues to work on me. At the end of the day, I'm the only person I can change. Hopefully, the way I live my life and choices I make, will shine light on someone else. If I can change, anyone can!!!

But blessed are your eyes because they see, and your ears because they hear-Matthew 13:16

Monday, November 1, 2010

Having Fun With Your Kids and Teaching about Giving at the Same Time!

Do you remember Halloween lasting only one day! We dressed up for school during the day and then came home and went trick-or-treating at night! Today, it seems to last all month. Mark and I took the kids trunk-n-treating, candypaloza and then trick-or-treating in the neighborhood. Oh, I can't forget about toliet papering my brother's house!!!

As fun as it was, I'm glad its all over! I'm exhausted but we enjoyed every minute. Its not about all the candy but spending time with our kids, dressing up and just having some fun! I know there are people who don't go out on Halloween. I understand why and respect them for their choices. Mark and I just look at this day as other time to enjoy and have fun with our kids, family and friends.

As I'm looking at the bags of candy the kids have, it gives me another chance to use this experience as a great teaching moment. The topic Greed! (we don't have to have some big emergency to teach our kids)

Do your kids dump out their candy on the ground and then protect it so their siblings or even you can't touch their candy? Do they count almost every piece to make sure nobody has taken any? Do they scream if a brother or sister tries to take one of their pieces? Are they trying to eat candy for breakfeast, lunch and dinner!! I'm sure ,if you have normal kids, the answer is yes!!!

Use this time to teach your kids about giving, sharing and how much do you really need. If you look at adults you know, they can act just like kids on Halloween in their every day life. They don't want to share, the more they have the more they want and its just never seems to be enough. Do you want your kids to grow up to be like that? Trust me, if you have a greedy child now, if you don't get a hold on it, that child will grow up to be a greedy adult.

Its okay to enjoy things and have things. God wants you to enjoy the blessing's he has given you and your children. Its important we appreciate the gifts God gives us becasue every good and perfect gift is from above and not feel guilty. Let them enjoy the candy they have but help them see they don't need all of it! Its important for us as parents and our children to learn how much is enough.

Have your kids pick our 20 or so of their favorite pieces of candy for themselves and then put some of the candy in a bowl for the entire family to share and then give the rest away, whether its to a homeless shelter, church or people you know. Make sure you have a dissusion around giving and the reasons you are asking them to do this. Don't force it on them or they will just be angry. God doesn want an angry giver he wants a cheerful one.

There is really is know reason why they need to have bags and bags of candy hiding in their room! Not only will you help your kids not to be greedy but you will also teach them about balance and eating healthy. Most important as you teach your kids and have them give away their candy, make sure they see you tithing and giving in your every day life. Its not so much what you say but what you do that matters.

"The he said to them, watch out! Be on your guard aainst all kinds of greed, a man's life does not consist in the abundance of his possessions." luke 12:15

Saturday, October 30, 2010

I'm finally getting back to blogging! Thank you so all my friends who didn't let me give up and encouraged me to keep writing and working towards my speaking career!!Even though I started this Blog a few years ago, I'm still learning about blogging and how to make this blog spot better. If you have any suggestions, please let me know. Let me know what you think

Homeschool Vs. Traditional

Homeschool Vs. Public School
by Kim Watt on Friday, September 24, 2010 at 10:20pm

Today, I was sitting at a table with a few home school mom's. We were all enjoying each others company because as any mom knows its so exciting when we can have adult conversation!

I heard a few ladies talking about "public" school kids and "homeschool" kids and as the conversation continued I couldn't help but think don't homeschool parents dislike it when they are stereotyped. When people think all homeschool kids are weird or have no social skills. But here they are doing the same thing talking about how ALL public school kids are basically bad or screwed up.

I'm a big advocate for homeschooling. I know the benefits and have experienced them first hand..( I will write about on a later date) I would encourage anyone who is even slightly thinking about homeschool to do it. I have met some amazing people and kids that have been homeschool. However, I do know that not everyone can or should homeschool for whatever reason whether financially, emotionally, mentally or spiritually.

As little as 6 years ago, I was not ready to homeschool and God new this. Thankfully he worked on me and prepared me for this time because I truly believe this is one of my callings on my life. Will I homeschool forever? I don't know. I hope so because the kids and I love it! But,only God knows that answer.

Today this article is not about traditional vs.homeschool. If homeschool is a calling on your life great, but be careful not to lump every kid into one category. I know amazing kids that attend public schools. Also, I know amazing teachers in the public school system and my kids have had a few of them.

The focus needs to be am I being the best parent and role model for my children. Are we parents working on ourselves and growing so we can teach our children by our example. Are we teaching our kids about Jesus? Because in this day and age whether you send your kids to school or home school the most important thing you can do for your kids is to show them God's love in EVERYTHING we do, tell them about God, set a good example and let them know without a doubt that God has a huge plan for their life. If we did this and focused on making ourselves better and stop pointing the figure at everyone else, I do believe our kids futures will be brighter. Today, we need to take a deeper look at ourselves and look at our kids. Yes, we are doing the best we can, but can it better??? Shouldn't our goal be to be open to change, to grow and to become more like Jesus???

Written by: Kim Watt

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Letting Go of My Baby Girl

Letting my baby girl go.....
by Kim Watt on Thursday, September 30, 2010 at 9:37am
When I post comnts on Fb they are not just words to me. I truly mean what I write. God has waken me up and given me increadbile experiences and has helped me brake free from bondage! I tood a huge risk 4 years ago and went after a dream of mine since I was 18 years old. I was scared and didn't know what the outcome would be but I did it anyway. Today, looking back I'm so thankful I did becasue my mark, my two older kids, my parents and myself have rededicated our life to Christ. He has restored my marriage, relationships, and has helped me break free from many things that have held me back from doing what he placed in my heart to do. When I talk about things, I come from a place of experience and passion for wanting to help other people becasue I know what Christ as done for me. If I wouldn't of taken that leap of faith, I wouldn't be here today speaking and writing about the Word of God. Trust me they"re have been many obstacles trying to stop me from getting to this place.

However, having those experiences for myself and sharing them are one thing. Experiening them as a mother is a completly differnt story. One of my missions in life is to help by example to help my kids love God with all their heart and soul and to let them know that God loves them so much and has such a bigger plan for their life. I don't want my kids to grow up to bm e selfish and to think all about themselves. I want them to understand the gifts God has given them are to Glorif him and to use them to help bring people closer to Christ. I don't want medicocracy and this crazy world to get into their head. I've seen many Christians who love Jesus however they can't brake free from bondage as much as they would want to, fear and worry have left the paralyzed.

I found myself that Christian this week. I found worry, fear, and aneity creep into my head. Thank God I know the Word of God becasue I knew these feelings were not coming from God. Makenna at the age of 10 years old has been given an opportunity from God. He has blessed her with amazing talent and has open the door for her to go to Texas. She has qualified for national Top Testing and is in the top 100 for her age group. She is so excited!

Looking at this outside, I am so excited for her too, but as a mom I can't help but cry. I have been on my knees all week praying and weeping to God to please keep my little girl safe. Mark and I can't go with her and this is her first time to leave us and to get on a plane with out any family. She has her coach and two of her best friends with her and I know everything will be ok..But, Its still hard. I see by baby girl growing up and as I hold marie and rock her at night and then look at Makenna I ask God why does time have to go by so fast. She is growing up and I'm not ready to let her go. As much as I know this is an opportunity of a life time, that dang enemy will enter my brain and have me think of such horrbile things that could happen. I've been over irrable esepcailly to Mark. Thank goodness he is a good man and knew it has nothing to do with him, it was becasue I am very emotional about Makenna leaving.

People have said to me why are you letting her go she is only 10 years old. My answer is when God calls you have to listen and trust him. Makenna is learning so much during this whole experience. She is learning things that most adults haven't learned. I don't know what Goo has planned for her life and it may have nothing to do with gymnatics, but I know its something spectacular.

My prayer for you and for myslef is to not the enemy paralyze your vison for yourself and your family. Take the risk, live by faith and trust God. Pick up your Bible so you know the word of God and can cast out those eveil thoughts when they enter your brain.

Makenna is teaching people that you don't have to wait unitl you are old to go after a dream. That God is calling all of us to let go of fear and worry and to better ourselves so we can Glorify him. We don't have to be like the isralites. They wandered in the wilderness for 40 years and it should of only taken them 11 days. Makenna is proof that you don't have to wait you can start right now. You are never to young or old to live your God given purpose....

********** I did not proof read or spell check!!! Please excuse any errors!!! I'm on my way to take Makenna to the airport pleaase pray for her,her coach,her friends and for me....I don't want God to let me get in the way of the dream God has placed on her heart....I will be happy when Saturday is here and she is in my arms again

My Pitty Party

This morning when I woke up I was already exhausted and ready to go back to bed. I don't know if this has ever happened to you, but before I could even put my feet on the ground, I already had my entire day planned and thought about everything I had to do. Before my day started it was alreaady over with. I could of pulled the covers over my head and just went back to bed!

As Mark and I are trying to get ready for church, I find myself getting stressed out! I start thinking about all that needs to be done today around the house. The laundry, clean the house, school to plan, grocery shopping becasue we are down th the slim picking, etc., and by the time I walk back into my bedroom in my mind sunday is over with and now I'm thinking about Monday. As i'm getting myself worked up and giving myself a pitty party, I walk into the bedroom and Mark is sitting on the bed with the T.V on.

My head is about to spin and for a min. it did. How can he just sit here and watch football highlights? Doesn't he know how much work needs to be done? Am I the only one that can hear Marie crying? I'm tired. I was up with Marie during the night and I sure wish I could just sit down and watch something I enjoy on TV.

As I try to remain calm. I ask him," Why are sitting down?" He looks at me and says, "kim I just sat down for a second to cut my finger nails." I then realized I needed to take a breather!!!

Sometimes we can be very hard on our husbands. At least I know I can. Sometimes, I get upset becasue it seems like he is gets to have all the fun especially with the kids. He doesn't think about the the things that need to get done. around the house llike I do. While they are playing, I'm in the house cleaning. Does this sound famiiar to anyone?

God reminded me today about the story of Martha an Mary. Here are two sisters who opened their home to Jesus. I'm sure Martha was very excited about having Jesus in her home but she let herself get distracted and wasn't enjoying what was most important. She started getting upset with mary becasue in Martha's eyes she wasn't doing anything but sitting at the Lord's feet listening to what he was saying. Martha thought I'm doing all the work why can't I get to enjoy Jesus too! Jesus says to her, "Martha, Martha, you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosed what is better, and it will not be taken away from her." Luke 10:41-42.

Whether you are a mom, single, married, divorced or widowoed. Being a woman isn't easy. We have many things on our plate at once. We find ourselves taking care of everyone else. Our kids, husbands, parents, grandparents, friends, church, etc., Sometimes and we are worn out feel like we missing out on something and lost the joy of doing what we once loved. When we feel like that we are focusing on ourself and not on Jesus. Jesus said there is only one thing that is needed and that is him. When we live for him nothing else matter. We are all human and find ourselves like Martha from time to time, but when we do we have to ask ourselves who are we really doing this for? Mary knew that Jesus would only be in her presence for a short time and not to take anything for granted.

Today, if you don't know Jesus ask him to come into your heart. Pick up the Bible and get to know him. If you do know him, stay focus on him and remember our lives are here today and could be gone tomorrow so enjoy what he has given you. Everything else can wait...

Wrtten by :Kim Watt

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Saturday, January 9, 2010

Do you remember when you were little and wanted to do something or wanted to buy something and your parents told you no. Didn't it make you so mad. I remember wanting to spend the night at a friends house and for whatever reason my parents didn't want me to hang out with her and did everything they could to prevent it. I didn't understand at the time but they had their reasons. I didn't agree with them nor did I understand them. Sometimes I would break the rules and when I got caught I sure did have to pay the consequences.

Now as a mom of three kids and the fourth on the way. I see things so differently. I understand now why my parents had rules and why they protected me. I was too little to understand, I was mature enough nor did I have life experience like they did. Yes, I tried to obey most of the rules they had for me but it didn't mean I understood them, argued with them and sometimes just thought they were so unfair. However, I'm doing the samethings with my kids. I'm just not going to let them hang out with just anyone or do whatever they want becasue they want to. They might not like our deicsions but as they grow and mature and become parents someday they will understand and they will appreciate they had parents that loved them so much.

I think the samething about God. He has a plan for our life. He has things he expects from all of us. There are consequences with our choices. He gives us the free will but just like your parents God doesn't want you to hurt yourself or others. He doesn't want you to just do whatever you want becasue that is how you feel. So many people misunderstand Chrisitanity. I know I did. Untili I learned to stop focusing on the people and begin to focus on God and his word. Christianity isn't borining and a list of things you can't do. God wants you to have fun, to live life to the fullest but there are a few things that he asks of you.

Today, stop having a babyfit and running away from God. There may be somethings you don't understand. I know there are for me and there are things in my life that I might not agree with but that is between me and God. God knows me and he is teaching me as I grow and bringing in some great people in my life to help me. The more I grow the more I undertand. I had to make the choice do I want to listen to God or listen to me. I know I don't have a clue on life so I better listen to him. Becasue the one thing I never want to do is to live my life and at the end of it realize I did it all wrong. Remember you are the leaders for your family. Admit you don't know and just maybe you could use a little help and direction. What could be the worse that could happen by accepting Jesus Christ in your life. You may just find out what Joy and Peace really are...Don't let Christians who you think are hypocrtical stop you from finding the truth. People will always fail but God will never let you down...

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