Looking in the mirror and taking a deep look at ourselves is not easy. Its so much easier to point our finger and blame everyone else and that was exactly what I was doing. It couldn’t possibly be me. It had to be everyone else! Wrong, it was me! I began to realize the only person I could change was me. As I began to look in the mirror I saw my imperfections. The wrinkles, pimples ( don't ask me how I still get pimples in my 30's!!!), and the beginning of gray hair. Most of all, I saw the person I never wanted to become. What happened to the girl who had so many dreams? Why was I holding on so many hurts, disappointments, grudges and insecurities? Why didn't I truly love the person God created? Why was I so angry at my husband? What happened to the marriage I dreamed of having but instead was slowly loosing? Why couldn't I ever be happy with what I had? The list goes on and on.
As I began to look at myself, I forgave and make peace with the person who I couldn’t stand and many other people and experiences I’ve had. But, most importantly, I forgave myself! ( I will write about forgiveness at a later time! Forgiveness has nothing to do with the other person. It has everything to do with you. Its not an easy thing to do.)
I hope you continue to read my blogs as I share my journey on how I found forgiveness, joy, peace and love in my life. How I learned why I was a control freak and how my marriage has been restored! How everything I needed or wanted was right in front of me. I will share the amazing experiences God gave me with speaking and traveling all over the U.S, London and Germany. How he gave me the opportunity to do a radio show, appear on PBS and be where I am today being a wife to my husband and homeschooling my kids! At this point in my life, there is nowhere else I would rather be! He placed so many incredible people in my path which has lead me to the place I am today. Looking at my life everything has changed and yet really nothing has except for me!
Living for Jesus will give you the meaning to your life that you have been searching for!