If you are like me, then big dreams and goals are just part of who you are. You want your life to matter and to leave a positive impact on your children family, friends and people who cross your path. The life I want to live is not just an ordinary life. I don't want to live a life full of what I want and need. I don't want to live a life just to please myself or for the approval and pleasing of people. I want to live a life that glorifies only God. How do we do that? What does that look like? Is that really possible?
If you don't know me, I get excited about all kinds of stuff. My mind is always going. I guess you could say I'm an entrepreneur at heart. I never have small ideas. Everything that comes to my mind, I want to do big! I love to share in other people's dreams too. To encourage them to know how big our God is and that anything with Him is possible. I truly believe that with all my heart. If people could just let go and see beyond the barriers and focus their mind on Christ, dreams would come true, families brought back together, marriages healed and experiencing joy, peace, love, forgiveness, like you never have had before.
With all those big dreams and ideas I have, God had to slow me down and tell me, "none of those things can happen until you prosper where you are planted." God has called and gifted me with speaking, teaching and a love to encourage and inspire people. He has placed a women's ministry in my heart. Before that can take root and grow God said, " if you can't lead your family,help your husband and prosper with all I have given you how in the world are you going to have a women ministry?" I've experienced first hand watching people go after their "dreams" however leaving their family behind. Killing the very first blessing God had given them. They had the applause of people, the money and all what the world calls success but found themselves with broken marriages and children hurt because of a absent mother or father. This is not what God has called us to do.
Last year Pastor Jeremy asked me to serve as a large group teacher for the kids ministry. I'll be honest, this was the last ministry I really wanted to be a part of! I home educate my kids all day so teaching more kids just didn't seem all that appealing to me. Plus I want to big people ministry! I want to talk about deeper issues and have adult conversations! I have bigger dreams than serving kids! I seriously was throwing a baby fit! It sure sounds kinds of prideful doesn't it! However, God asked," Is this about you or is this about me." Ouch! He sure can convict you if you are listening! Not only did I have to put what I want to the side but also had to face some fears. I had some reasons or I should say fears of why I didn't want to get involved. It really had nothing to do with the kids but more of the adults! What if I said something wrong, what if they don't like me, what if I don't fit in and what if they don't accept me? These were some of the thoughts that kept going around in my head! Oh the fear of REJECTION! But God keeps reminding this is not about me nor about everyone else. It's about being obedient to God. I'm to stay focused on him and if those things happen then He will deal with it not me! Fear works like that trying to keep you away from God's biggest blessings. I knew to trust God and with my hubby and oldest daughter encouraging me we all jumped in feet first.
I'll be honest there are days that I just don't feel like serving. I'm tired and there are a million other things I could do. However, It is only one day a week and sometimes I can only serve two times a month. It's not about what we feel. It's not about what we want to do. It's all about God and he loves his children. These children mean so much to him. He told me, "If I can't lead and connect with these kids then all those big dreams of leading a women's ministry are just in vain." I don't know how long I will be serving in the children's ministry. The small amount of time I've been serving, they have been more of a blessing to me than I have been to them. I love serving with the team that God has placed in my life. I love the young kids that work the sound system and serving with them. I love serving with my husband and my daughter. Most of all I love looking into those big brown eyes of my two kids that sit at my feet on Saturday nights listening to me teach the word of God to them and their friends. When you have a chance to hear these kids hearts and they trust you enough to poor their fears, troubles and success to you, it's extremely humbling.
The reason I write this is because Metro Kids really needs some help. Pray on it and if God is leading you to serve, you will be welcomed with open hands and hearts not just by both the volunteers but by all those kids who show up every week looking for someone to love them! I believe if we take care of these kids the way God wants us to and not look at them like they are a burden our church will be more blessed because of it! But we should not be serving these kids in order for God to bless us,we are to do it because it's what God expects us to do.
Mark and I don't serve these kids to please anyone else but our father in heaven. He cares so much about these kids so we should too. It shouldn't be a ministry we run from but to ran after even if it's only for a season. When we can prosper with what God has already given us, when we can lead our families, be the spouse God has called us to be and take care of the children first, then my friend the doors to what ever else God has placed on your heart shall be opened!