Here I am in Love with God more than I ever have been in my life, studying his word and living for him. Yet, insecurity still haunts me. God has helped me overcome many obstacles in my life, set me free from strongholds, made me take a deeper look at myself, healed my marriage, basically changed my life from the inside out. So, why then do I still struggle with the thoughts of not good enough and afraid of failing God.
As God has been working on me, I felt the calling to women's ministry a few years ago. Though, God told me it wasn't time yet, to keep learning. Recently, I have been feeling him tugging at my heart telling me its time to start. I've been using different excuses but he keeps telling me its time to move forward! I'm so fired up on the calling on my life. I love learning about God, teaching and sharing Jesus with women. Even though I may know these things in the deepest part of my heart, the minuet I walk outside my house or in a church, I feel so unworthy. I've had the discussion with God many times and maybe you have had the same talk. Why me? Why did you make me the way I am? Why did you make me so different? At times, I don't feel like I fit in anywhere. Did you have to give me such a big mouth! (Thankful he has helped me learn how to use it for Good because for years all it did was get me in trouble!)
I think he has gotten tired of my baby fits and whining! The enemy wants us to feed our insecurities because it takes us away from the promises God wants for our life. God keeps telling me and he is telling you the same if you just listen, he loves us, he delights in us! He have gifted each one of us for a reason and for his purposes. I have to keep remembering that and to be thankful the way he made me even if others around me might not like it! He will keep working on me and changing me as he wants to. Until then God has told me its time to get a move on!
Here I am! Despite all doubts and struggles I have I am learning to accept his gifts, the calling on my life and to know its not arrogant or prideful to know who you are in Christ. God has opened a door to begin a women's group at a local library. I don't know what his plans are, if it is to teach me humility because nobody showed up this week! Is it to trust him and just start walking? Is it to help me focus each week on different topics so I can dive deeper in his word? Is it so I keep giving all my insecurities over to him? I believe yes to all the questions. I'm not doing this for myself. I'm doing this to Glorify my God. Everyone has a beginning and God says if we stay faithful, walk by faith and not by sight and do good with what he has given us then more will come. My heart is to help other women just like me.
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Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Taking a Break This Summer!
This has been by far one of my best summer's ever! The craziest thing is I didn't really do anything! I took a break from just about everything! Well, except for taking care of my family! I didn't have the kids signed up in a million activities. Markus and Marcia did their usual Karate with mark and Makenna continues to do gymnastics of course! We did fun activities around the house. The kids had . their friends over and had many sleep overs and we even made a trip to cedar point. I was able to connect with a few friends, though not as many as I would of liked to have seen. There are still some people I tried to make plans with but becasue of everyone's schedule it just hasn't worked out yet!
In one sense I was busy this summer with every day living with four kids, but this type of "busy" is what I love! What I took a break from was all the other unnecessary things I didn't have to do or the time I was spending on FB! My mind was begining to fill up with clutter. I was getting irritable and not spending the time with God that I really wanted to be spending. It was time to disconnect and get quite, which is not an easy task for me. I really felt God wanting me to do this again. I needed a clear mind to hear from Him.
If you find yourself stressed, overwhelmed, trying to find out what decision to make, kids are driving you crazy or your marriage needs help, try taking sometime for yourself. There has to be a few things in your schedule that you don't have to do. I didn't have to ck FB every morning, evening and sometimes a few times during the day! You want to talk about cluttering your mind! Why do we really need to know what time someone is using the bathroom or going to the store? Don't get me wrong, I like FB and connecting with friends but at this point in my life I wanted to hear what God was saying more than the 200 friends were thinking and most of them I don't really even know!
God took these past few weeks and came through once again. Every time there is a lesson learned don't get to comfortable because he isn't done with you yet! There are more coming your way. I learned what Love truly means. I learned on what it means to wait on God and he taught me in the funniest ways too! He helped me to understand how much he loves me and how to give myself grace. It's ok to mess up! He is teaching me to let Him do the work and not me. All I have to do is follow and do what he is asking me to do. I can't wait to write about all the lessons he has taught me and hopefully through my mess, it will bless you! If you feel like your head is going to pop at any given moment or you just would like to have five minutes to yourself or to be even to use the bathroom alone, take those as signs. Its time to take a breather and break from all the unnecessary appointments in your life or even from FB and hear from God! I am so excited on what he is doing in me and through me and that could only happen when we take time and listen.
In one sense I was busy this summer with every day living with four kids, but this type of "busy" is what I love! What I took a break from was all the other unnecessary things I didn't have to do or the time I was spending on FB! My mind was begining to fill up with clutter. I was getting irritable and not spending the time with God that I really wanted to be spending. It was time to disconnect and get quite, which is not an easy task for me. I really felt God wanting me to do this again. I needed a clear mind to hear from Him.
If you find yourself stressed, overwhelmed, trying to find out what decision to make, kids are driving you crazy or your marriage needs help, try taking sometime for yourself. There has to be a few things in your schedule that you don't have to do. I didn't have to ck FB every morning, evening and sometimes a few times during the day! You want to talk about cluttering your mind! Why do we really need to know what time someone is using the bathroom or going to the store? Don't get me wrong, I like FB and connecting with friends but at this point in my life I wanted to hear what God was saying more than the 200 friends were thinking and most of them I don't really even know!
God took these past few weeks and came through once again. Every time there is a lesson learned don't get to comfortable because he isn't done with you yet! There are more coming your way. I learned what Love truly means. I learned on what it means to wait on God and he taught me in the funniest ways too! He helped me to understand how much he loves me and how to give myself grace. It's ok to mess up! He is teaching me to let Him do the work and not me. All I have to do is follow and do what he is asking me to do. I can't wait to write about all the lessons he has taught me and hopefully through my mess, it will bless you! If you feel like your head is going to pop at any given moment or you just would like to have five minutes to yourself or to be even to use the bathroom alone, take those as signs. Its time to take a breather and break from all the unnecessary appointments in your life or even from FB and hear from God! I am so excited on what he is doing in me and through me and that could only happen when we take time and listen.
Friday, June 24, 2011
Is it really hard being baby number 4?
Marie is turning 11 months on the 30th and her first birthday is just around the corner. However, I haven't a clue on what we are going to do for her. It's funny how things change from the first child to the fourth! I remember having Makenna's first birthday and had it planned a few months ahead of time or at least I had an idea of what I wanted to do. I think we invited everyone we knew!! Then as we had Markus and Marcia the parties became smaller and smaller!
Sometimes I feel like Marie and sometimes Marcia gets the short end of the stick. Especially Marie. I've only taken her once to get her pictures taken since she was born. Makenna and Markus had their pictures taken every 3 months and even marcia had her pictures taken a few times too! Marie has gotten more hand me downs than any of the other kids, barely any new toys (who needs toys when there is remote controls, pots and pans and cupboard doors!) The video camera doesn't get turned on as much but who as time because we are on the go Marie spent her first year in her car seat! ( not so much but it did seem like it at times) and the pictures we have taken are still sitting in the camera waiting to get printed. Makenna and Markus have tons of scrapbooks and baby books and Marie only has her name printed on the front of the book.
But with saying all that, I also look at all the love she recieves. She has two sisters and a brother that loves her more than life itself. Mark and I are in such a better place mentally, emotionally and spiritually. We are not so high strung like we were when Makenna was little and our marriage has been restored like I can't explain. God is the center of our life and our vision for our family is even larger than it was 10 years ago when Makenna was born. I've chilled out in so many ways and learned so many life lessons and because of that Marie benefits from it greatly ( so do the other kids) . We love Marie as much as we love all the other kids and couldn't imagine our life without here.
Actually, I don't really think she has missed out being number four. She receives so much love and at the end of the day "stuff" really doesn't matter. Yes, she doesn't have her own room and when she gets married one day and we want to put a collage of pictures together of her life, I might have to borrow pictures from my friends or find pictures of the kids and tell her it is her ( thank goodness they all look alike) and she can tease Mark and I and say how she never had as much as her big brother and sisters. But if mark and I do our job as parents she will know that things aren't important and she will know without a doubt how much God,Mark and I love her with ever bit of our heart....It all depends on how you look at life. Being number four isn't has bad as it looks even if she doesn't get the party of the year!!!
Sometimes I feel like Marie and sometimes Marcia gets the short end of the stick. Especially Marie. I've only taken her once to get her pictures taken since she was born. Makenna and Markus had their pictures taken every 3 months and even marcia had her pictures taken a few times too! Marie has gotten more hand me downs than any of the other kids, barely any new toys (who needs toys when there is remote controls, pots and pans and cupboard doors!) The video camera doesn't get turned on as much but who as time because we are on the go Marie spent her first year in her car seat! ( not so much but it did seem like it at times) and the pictures we have taken are still sitting in the camera waiting to get printed. Makenna and Markus have tons of scrapbooks and baby books and Marie only has her name printed on the front of the book.
But with saying all that, I also look at all the love she recieves. She has two sisters and a brother that loves her more than life itself. Mark and I are in such a better place mentally, emotionally and spiritually. We are not so high strung like we were when Makenna was little and our marriage has been restored like I can't explain. God is the center of our life and our vision for our family is even larger than it was 10 years ago when Makenna was born. I've chilled out in so many ways and learned so many life lessons and because of that Marie benefits from it greatly ( so do the other kids) . We love Marie as much as we love all the other kids and couldn't imagine our life without here.
Actually, I don't really think she has missed out being number four. She receives so much love and at the end of the day "stuff" really doesn't matter. Yes, she doesn't have her own room and when she gets married one day and we want to put a collage of pictures together of her life, I might have to borrow pictures from my friends or find pictures of the kids and tell her it is her ( thank goodness they all look alike) and she can tease Mark and I and say how she never had as much as her big brother and sisters. But if mark and I do our job as parents she will know that things aren't important and she will know without a doubt how much God,Mark and I love her with ever bit of our heart....It all depends on how you look at life. Being number four isn't has bad as it looks even if she doesn't get the party of the year!!!
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
The experience with ear piercing!
Today, was a big day in the Watt family! Makenna and Marcia decided to get their ear's pierced. Mark and I made the decision when they were born to wait until they were old enough to take care of their ear's by themselves. Also, we wanted them to remember the day and have it be a special memory. We wanted it to be their choice. The age we decided on was 7. Makenna wanted nothing to do it with it but Marcia has been waiting patiently. She would of had them pierced at 3 years old! Finally, Makenna said she wanted them pierced but only with Marcia. So, we decided to let them both do this together! It was hilarious.
First, Markus hates the sight of blood and the thought of needles makes him go nuts! You would of though it was him that was getting his ear's pierced! He thought there would be blood after they shoot his sisters ear's with the piercing gun. He was screaming in the back ground, "I can't look! It's going to hurt! I don't want to see blood! You would have to be there, because we were laughing so hard.
Makenna would not go first she started having second thoughts, so Marcia hopped up on the chair and said I'm ready lets do this! As the lady was getting ready to pierce her ear she did an in to out block! ( I think that is what you call it) Her karate instructors would of been so proud! She said, "WAIT" I have to talk to my mom. She whispers in my ear, "you did this when you were a kid, right?" I said, "Yes." She said, Ok, I'm ready!" After it was all over with and she saw how cute she looks with the earrings, she said, "I'm ready to this again!" (BTW, we were at the mall and marcia was wearing her bathing suit and her matching skirt and tennis shoes! so cute!)
Makenna was a different story. She said her stomach was hurting and was so nervous. She decided to do it and held my hand so tight! After, she said it wasn't that bad!!
It was a big day for the girls but a bigger day for Mark and I. As we looked at them and just admired how beautiful our daughters ( markus is a handsome boy too!) are and how grown up they look with their sparkle in their ears, we realized not only will they never forget this moment and neither will we. I think I saw a little tear in Mark's eye's. We both know and see our first baby girl getting ready to enter a new chapter of her life. Our kids are growing up and mark and are growing with them. It's a beautiful thing, but man it can just tug at your heart because it just goes by so fast....
First, Markus hates the sight of blood and the thought of needles makes him go nuts! You would of though it was him that was getting his ear's pierced! He thought there would be blood after they shoot his sisters ear's with the piercing gun. He was screaming in the back ground, "I can't look! It's going to hurt! I don't want to see blood! You would have to be there, because we were laughing so hard.
Makenna would not go first she started having second thoughts, so Marcia hopped up on the chair and said I'm ready lets do this! As the lady was getting ready to pierce her ear she did an in to out block! ( I think that is what you call it) Her karate instructors would of been so proud! She said, "WAIT" I have to talk to my mom. She whispers in my ear, "you did this when you were a kid, right?" I said, "Yes." She said, Ok, I'm ready!" After it was all over with and she saw how cute she looks with the earrings, she said, "I'm ready to this again!" (BTW, we were at the mall and marcia was wearing her bathing suit and her matching skirt and tennis shoes! so cute!)
Makenna was a different story. She said her stomach was hurting and was so nervous. She decided to do it and held my hand so tight! After, she said it wasn't that bad!!
It was a big day for the girls but a bigger day for Mark and I. As we looked at them and just admired how beautiful our daughters ( markus is a handsome boy too!) are and how grown up they look with their sparkle in their ears, we realized not only will they never forget this moment and neither will we. I think I saw a little tear in Mark's eye's. We both know and see our first baby girl getting ready to enter a new chapter of her life. Our kids are growing up and mark and are growing with them. It's a beautiful thing, but man it can just tug at your heart because it just goes by so fast....
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Taking some time and reflecting on the past 13 years of my marriage and father's day. It amazes me how time really does go by so fast. I look at my 4 kids and see them growing up right before my eyes. Yes, it is very exciting but at the sametime I want to scream and cry because it seems like it was yesterday that I was the little girl asking my dad on Saturday nights to go bike riding up to the coney island to see my mom at work! It seems like yesterday my mom tucking my brother and I in at night and giving me those mom talks that have continued into my adult life! It seems like yesterday, it was my dad teaching me how to bounce a basketball and now it's my husband teaching our kids. Life hasn't been easy but I'm so thankful for everything in my life. You would think after homeschooling the kids and being with them all day everyday that I would be so excited to have them grow up and get out of the house, but it's actually the oppostie. I know how fast life goes by and I never want to grow weary or loose focus on what life is truly about. I have an amazing dad and husband that loves me so much, but who I reall need to thank is my heavly father because it is him who has given me so much life especially when I didn't deserve it. He has loved me and continues to love me and helps me grow to be a better wife, mother, daughter, sister and friend. Even when I didn't realize he was next to me, he still loved me.Thank you for changing me .Thank you for every minute of my life, for the family and friends you have blessed me with, for the good and hard times becasue in those desparte times is where I have always found you. Thank you God for all amazing blessings you have given me. Sometimes, I may forget and get stressed out over something very trivial but you always remind me what life is all about.
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Commencement Speech- Professional Speaker Kim Watt
Its amazing how God works! I haven't spoken in front of a large audience over a year or two and last night I began to freak out! I prayed and asked God do I really have to do this? If so, he better be with me and give me the words to speak.
I know this is to much information but when I woke up this morning I had the signs of speaking!!! Every time I speak I have stomach aches and gas!!! As weird as this sounds I welcomed those feelings because I knew I was getting ready to do something that I love doing. There is something that happens to me as I walk on a stage and have an opportunity to speak and connect with an audience. It's as though my soul comes alive! Besides being a wife, mother, daughter, sister, aunt, niece and friend ( I think I have them all covered!) there is no where else I would rather be than on stage using my God given talents and glorifying God!
See, God whispered to me today and reminded me that I was created for more and yes the season I'm in right now is extremely important and I love being a stay at home mom. God reminded me if I stay focused in due time I will be able to get out there and speak again and I can't wait!
As you listen to this, there is a mistake when talking about the death of my best friend. I meant to say she died two months prior to graduation and instead I said she passed away three months ago.
Thank you Jesus for the simple reminder never to give up! Let me know what you think....
I know this is to much information but when I woke up this morning I had the signs of speaking!!! Every time I speak I have stomach aches and gas!!! As weird as this sounds I welcomed those feelings because I knew I was getting ready to do something that I love doing. There is something that happens to me as I walk on a stage and have an opportunity to speak and connect with an audience. It's as though my soul comes alive! Besides being a wife, mother, daughter, sister, aunt, niece and friend ( I think I have them all covered!) there is no where else I would rather be than on stage using my God given talents and glorifying God!
See, God whispered to me today and reminded me that I was created for more and yes the season I'm in right now is extremely important and I love being a stay at home mom. God reminded me if I stay focused in due time I will be able to get out there and speak again and I can't wait!
As you listen to this, there is a mistake when talking about the death of my best friend. I meant to say she died two months prior to graduation and instead I said she passed away three months ago.
Thank you Jesus for the simple reminder never to give up! Let me know what you think....
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Can you really feed a family on $100.00 per week?
Grocery shopping can be a pain and costly. However, if you are serious about wanting to make extra money and willing to CHANGE, then one of the answers can be as simply looking in you refrigerator or kitchen cabinets! If you want to save money or make money it is time to start trimming the fat from your life and it can start with grocery shopping!
One of my mentors put me to this challenge 1 1/2 ago. (she is a Christian, married, mother of 5 an a self-made millionaire! . If you want to debt free, have a better relationship or open a business, then get people in your life you can learn from. You don't want to be them but learn what they have done.) It has taken me this long to get it down! However, with a little attitude adjustment and willing to change, we have saved lots of money and are no longer in debt! ( I should say no longer in debt minus the house)
Cooking is not my favorite nor am I good at it and I love to eat out! However, I knew this wasn't healthy, good on the pocket book nor was it teaching my kids on how to be wise with their money or how to run a house hold. I pulled up my big girl pants and was willing to do what needed to be done!
I have saved money and this is without coupons but as soon as my sister in law teaches me how to save money with coupons I will be saving even more money!!!
Challenge yourself to 100.00 per week for groceries! I know it sounds nut but it can be done. How bad do you want to go on that vacation? How bad do you want to start a small business? How bad do you want to stay at home with your kids or pay off your credit card? If it is bad enough, well you can do it!
Here is what I do:
1. Obviously, make a list and plan for only a week! ( I say obviously, but a few years ago, I never made a list and just bought whatever I wanted and way too much and that is gluttony. We should only be buying what we really need. (for drunkards and gluttons become poor, and drowsiness clothe them in rags. Proverbs 23:21)
2. A friend of mine told me a few years ago, how she only shops on the outside aisle and never in the middle. I buy a few things in the middle aisle but only a few.
3. stop buying all that crappy junk food! I buy snacks but try to stay focused on healthy snacks. If you have a sweet tooth bake! Think about it, if you have to bake your cookies you are not going to be eating them everyday because it takes time and work! It cuts down on cost and your waist line! ( we are lucky Mark works for a baking company, so when we want store bought doughnuts he can surprise us and bring them home! Also, I try to keep Mark away from grocery shopping too! He would buy more snacks and less healthy food!!!)
4. No more boxed food! once I learned what is in all of that, I stay away. If I have to buy something in a box,I try to buy organic.
5. By cutting down on buying snacks, junk and more than I need, I'm able to buy organic milk, fruit, eggs and cereal.
It's really not hard at all it just takes discipline and work! Stop eating out and start cooking at home. Maybe you are reading this and say DA Kim!! If so, you rock! Unfortunately, evn though I may have known these things, I was off course and thankful for the people God put in my life to help get me back on track!
Remember, "Luke 16:10 Anyone who can be trusted in little matters can also be trusted in important matters. But anyone who is dishonest in little matters will be dishonest in important matters." This applies to how and where we spend our money and yes even at the grocery store matters to God!
One of my mentors put me to this challenge 1 1/2 ago. (she is a Christian, married, mother of 5 an a self-made millionaire! . If you want to debt free, have a better relationship or open a business, then get people in your life you can learn from. You don't want to be them but learn what they have done.) It has taken me this long to get it down! However, with a little attitude adjustment and willing to change, we have saved lots of money and are no longer in debt! ( I should say no longer in debt minus the house)
Cooking is not my favorite nor am I good at it and I love to eat out! However, I knew this wasn't healthy, good on the pocket book nor was it teaching my kids on how to be wise with their money or how to run a house hold. I pulled up my big girl pants and was willing to do what needed to be done!
I have saved money and this is without coupons but as soon as my sister in law teaches me how to save money with coupons I will be saving even more money!!!
Challenge yourself to 100.00 per week for groceries! I know it sounds nut but it can be done. How bad do you want to go on that vacation? How bad do you want to start a small business? How bad do you want to stay at home with your kids or pay off your credit card? If it is bad enough, well you can do it!
Here is what I do:
1. Obviously, make a list and plan for only a week! ( I say obviously, but a few years ago, I never made a list and just bought whatever I wanted and way too much and that is gluttony. We should only be buying what we really need. (for drunkards and gluttons become poor, and drowsiness clothe them in rags. Proverbs 23:21)
2. A friend of mine told me a few years ago, how she only shops on the outside aisle and never in the middle. I buy a few things in the middle aisle but only a few.
3. stop buying all that crappy junk food! I buy snacks but try to stay focused on healthy snacks. If you have a sweet tooth bake! Think about it, if you have to bake your cookies you are not going to be eating them everyday because it takes time and work! It cuts down on cost and your waist line! ( we are lucky Mark works for a baking company, so when we want store bought doughnuts he can surprise us and bring them home! Also, I try to keep Mark away from grocery shopping too! He would buy more snacks and less healthy food!!!)
4. No more boxed food! once I learned what is in all of that, I stay away. If I have to buy something in a box,I try to buy organic.
5. By cutting down on buying snacks, junk and more than I need, I'm able to buy organic milk, fruit, eggs and cereal.
It's really not hard at all it just takes discipline and work! Stop eating out and start cooking at home. Maybe you are reading this and say DA Kim!! If so, you rock! Unfortunately, evn though I may have known these things, I was off course and thankful for the people God put in my life to help get me back on track!
Remember, "Luke 16:10 Anyone who can be trusted in little matters can also be trusted in important matters. But anyone who is dishonest in little matters will be dishonest in important matters." This applies to how and where we spend our money and yes even at the grocery store matters to God!
Is God trying to shut the door and why?
I couldn't agree more with the devotional I read on FB this morning. The title, "When God Closes the Door." I don't know about you but that is sometimes really hard to understand at times, let go and follow God's lead especially when it is something we love doing, been doing for years or when you KNOW God has placed a dream on your heart but yet he just hasn't opened the door you want to be opened yet!
If you read my blogs, you may or may not know what I'm passionate about and what dreams God has placed on my heart. A few years ago, he gave me a glimpse of what he wants me to do, but he knew I only believed in him and he needed me to have a relationship with him. He didn't just shut the door he slammed it! I didn't want to give that dream up because I felt like I was failing or quitting. God spoke to me, ( not in a way were I heard his voice! I felt it in my spirit loud and clear and in his word) He told me it wasn't time yet, to wait on him and for me not to be tempted to push myself out there just to prove to other people what HE has called me to do. Wait on him and so I am. (waiting on him doesn't mean I'm just sitting here and doing nothing either! I'm studying, reading, and let God work on me everyday. So when he calls and says it times, I'm ready! Whatever you are facing, don't stop working on yourself and your relaionship with God.)
But let me tell you, if I didn't listen to him and kept on pushing and pursuing a dream on my time, I would of missed the biggest blessing I could ever ask for and that is homeschooling my kids. I could never of imagined myself doing this and yet God did. It's not a glamours job and the world may not know my name but my kids sure do know who their mom is and I definitely know my kids too!
If God is trying to shut a door, especially if it is with something you love. It doesn't mean it is over. It just means he has something better for you or he just has to do some work in you first! Trust God and just keep moving forward! I know that sounds easier than it really is. We have to let go of whatevery one else thinks and get rid of our big ego's! As soon as you do, you will be amazed by what God will bring in your life! God knows before I can go out and speak his word, He needs to work on me and for me to pay attention to what matters first and that is God,my husband and kids! At the end of the day that is all that really matters...
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
If you read my blogs, you may or may not know what I'm passionate about and what dreams God has placed on my heart. A few years ago, he gave me a glimpse of what he wants me to do, but he knew I only believed in him and he needed me to have a relationship with him. He didn't just shut the door he slammed it! I didn't want to give that dream up because I felt like I was failing or quitting. God spoke to me, ( not in a way were I heard his voice! I felt it in my spirit loud and clear and in his word) He told me it wasn't time yet, to wait on him and for me not to be tempted to push myself out there just to prove to other people what HE has called me to do. Wait on him and so I am. (waiting on him doesn't mean I'm just sitting here and doing nothing either! I'm studying, reading, and let God work on me everyday. So when he calls and says it times, I'm ready! Whatever you are facing, don't stop working on yourself and your relaionship with God.)
But let me tell you, if I didn't listen to him and kept on pushing and pursuing a dream on my time, I would of missed the biggest blessing I could ever ask for and that is homeschooling my kids. I could never of imagined myself doing this and yet God did. It's not a glamours job and the world may not know my name but my kids sure do know who their mom is and I definitely know my kids too!
If God is trying to shut a door, especially if it is with something you love. It doesn't mean it is over. It just means he has something better for you or he just has to do some work in you first! Trust God and just keep moving forward! I know that sounds easier than it really is. We have to let go of whatevery one else thinks and get rid of our big ego's! As soon as you do, you will be amazed by what God will bring in your life! God knows before I can go out and speak his word, He needs to work on me and for me to pay attention to what matters first and that is God,my husband and kids! At the end of the day that is all that really matters...
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
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